Thursday, February 16, 2012

LAUGHING IS GOOD


Last night I was going into a dark black hole......
I had decided ....
or maybe more then just Me..
had decided ....
we had enough.....
we didn't wanna see P anymore....
we didn't wanna do the work....
we weren't gonna go in the mornin....
we had enough..
we quit...
just let us die......





This morning we woke up at 9:46 am ...
we had a 10:00 am appt with P.....
we jumped then said "fuck it"we ain't goin.......
next thing ya know we were rushing to make our appt on time.....
we made coffee and ran out the door.....
rushing so much we forgot PBB.........
I remember driving..
wondering why I was in the car and.....
why was I even bothering...
and really upset we didn't have PBB.....

so we arrived only a few minutes late...
we were determined to tell P that we were never coming back ...
that we quit...

well I don't know who that was....
cause it never happened....

Today i was probably the most relaxed I had ever been.....
there was even laughter....

Sometimes avoiding the bad stuff is a good thing.....
I ..me..was present for most of our time there...
I was aware of a few who were close....
but it was my time to be there...
it was my time to rest...
I needed the laughter.....

All through the hour ..
I and Sam were very aware that Pbb was not with us...
so in light P had mentioned that PBB needed an alter.....
and we really laughed.....

but why not??
why not a little humor mixed with the reality?????
so P is out looking for an alter for PBB....

I believe this will be a successful mission....

And tomorrow..
well I guess we'll see......

As always....

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