WE'RE IN TROUBLE

JU JU the one that has memory that has haunted me...
it wasn't  me it was Ju JU
I was goin to parenting anonymous meeting.....i was getting angry at kids
I had a brand new baby and my 4 year old daughter,,,'''

wish you could see how beautiful she was ..
i was brushing her hair too hard she was fighting and crying,,,
the group told me to pick her up and put her in her room...so
 i did or JU JU did...she was already angry..
and when she was carrying her to her room her daughter kicked her,,,s
and in one
quick motion she threw her daughter down...her nose hit the stair ...

and it looked like it was in her face,,,'''''
she dropped her baby at a neighbors house ,.......
and took her daughter to the ER,,,
where she tried to tell on herself'that she's a bad mom and.....
 she did this...they didn't believe her...
so mom /
JU JU proceeded to take psychotrofic drugs so she would be numb and never hurt her kids again,,,
 and she never did''
but she was no longer there emotionally for he kids for years,,,
for when she looked in her kids eyes she saw her own.....over all the years the only thing that helped were drugs..no human offered any help..

Mary was already dead and her ghost haunted me about how disgusting i was ,.....
 what a bad mother i would be and how bad I was because i had 2 abortions which i still don't forgive..

San is angry...she didn't talk...bonnie still won't take her or lil bits pain...they are in chaos.....
and Bongo is sobbing ..but i don't know why..she will not speak about it....
I do know i get lost in my tunnel and scream for p only she can't hear it...
curled up in a bawl,,,I need her i am crying and calling her name.....

code wore Liza...
.......
PICK UP THE PHONE

We were't honest today...we held back...now we need help out...

PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP we scream...
COde word LIZA......
We're in trouble ......

As always.....



As always.....